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Friday, May 4, 2012

I had a heart attack today!



I DIDN'T have a heart attack today, let me explain. For all my life, well at least since I was 15, I have had severe pain in my chest once or twice a year. It often happens out of the blue, not when I am in any physical activity. Sometimes when I am lying down, sometimes when I driving, sometimes when I am just watching tv, today it happened when I was shopping for a laptop. This pain is a tightening of my chest, feels like a hand is squeezing my heart/lungs. I feel it go down my left arm sometimes, but then I realize that could be psycho symptomatic. I have never told anyone about these pains. Well, I told one person once, a few years ago, and she screamed at me to call an ambulance. She told me if I didn't she would call the ambulance and give them my address. She asked me how long it had lasted, and that time it had lasted for about five minutes. I told her I would call and hung up. I never called because I knew it would go away and it did.
A few weeks ago there was a baseball player from the San Francisco Giants that went on the injured reserve list because of anxiety attacks. There was a lot of talk about it on talk radio and people described what they went through when this happened to them. I used to think anxiety attacks were when your heart raced and you worried about things, stuff like that. On the radio they talked about it feeling like you have a heart attack, when your chest tightens and feels hard to breathe. People talk about "fight or flight", that our natural instinct is to either run away, or face our problems and overcome them. I started thinking about what I was doing before I had my chest pain. Before I went shopping I was worried that my laptop was broken, in fact that is why I was shopping for a new one. Before I went into the store I found my laptop worked so the worry was over. As I think back about my other episodes when they happened I was not stressed, but before it happened I had a crisis in my life. I was ok during the crisis, but when it was over and I could rest my body reacted. I am happy I figured this out today because now I will be prepared for it.

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