I'm depressed tonight :(

I had dinner with my daughters tonight. All three were together this week and I was happy because we were able to have dinner together. We had fun, Sarah drove us to the restaurant which was fun because she is just starting to drive and she used to be driven around by her sisters when they had their permit. They joked with Sarah, and everyone had advice for her and driving. It was great being together with all three again. Dinner was like it is always with them, and they were in good spirits and joked about how Dad would eat anything they didn't. I haven't been that happy in a long time, it is nice to have them together. Not everything that happened, and was said was a high, but it was exciting to have them all together. I don't know how often more that will happen with them starting to have their own lives and graduating for college and getting careers.

So, you may ask, why am I depressed tonight? Because I took them to their house after dinner and then came back to my home. Going from a high to a normal feels like going from normal to a low! I am very happy I was able to see them tonight. I am glad they are happy in their lives. I feel like I am successful if they are happy and eventually successful in what they want to do. I guess the reason you get depressed is you were once happy and want to be that way again. Isn't that why people use drugs? They use drugs because they want to be as happy as they were at one time. I don't need drugs, I have my kids to make me happy when I get "down". Some people say they are, "high on life", I sometimes think I am, "high on my kids"! Thanks Sarah, Jayne, and Lindsey!