Being a Role Model

We are all role models, whether it is a positive or negative role model. I have been both, I have made a lot of mistakes in my life. Many things I would never want to repeat and I hope no one has seen that mistake. I can remember the speech I made at my farewell in Germany, and I wish I could take back what I said. I remember what I did when I got divorced, and I hope no one that knew me observed me. I don't like many things I did, and I know some people observed what I did, and they decided if Scott/Mr. Phillips/ Captain Phillips did it/said it they could also. I kick myself sometimes when I think of the mistakes I have made. My kids get annoyed these days since I don't want to do anything new that I haven't done before. I have always prided myself on liking new things and always being open minded and adventurous. Unfortunately some of that has gone away, as I have been shot down throughout my life. I always hear people say that successful people are the ones that get up after they are knocked down. There gets to be a time when you get tired getting knocked down, and your butt starts to hurt. You decide to just stay down and watch life go by. I can remember one of the first times I got knocked down, 2nd grade I loved show and tell and my teacher told me not to talk with my hands so much. That was over 50 years ago and I still remember! In addition to negative things some things I do people find as positive in their life.

Today I ran across an old friend's blog. In fact, she said she started her blog because of me. It made me surprised and pleased with myself. My sister tried writing a blog, but she found what I have found that it is hard to keep it going. I have been writing in this since October 2010 and keep trying to keep it going. Sometimes I find it hard and I have a week or two of lapse, then some people email me and tell me to keep writing. I have also found a couple of people have decided to try to run a 5K because I have told them about my running. I don't think I have sugar coated the run, I have told people that I don't like it and it hurts when I am finished. I have problems keeping motivated to run. The one thing I can say is once you start you will finish if you keep going in the right direction. Never worry about the time, just worry about finishing. They call it a "fun run" but it is also a "fun walk" too. Bring a camera, bring some music you like, or a book to listen to if that is what you want. I hope I continue affecting people positively because I know I will continue to affect them negatively also!