Feeling down ...

I got up this morning and was going to run ... but I didn't. I was going to go to Monterey to visit my mom, in fact I got all packed ... but I didn't. I was going to go buy parts to fix my daughter's computer ... but I didn't. I don't like when I get in this kind of mood. If I really think of why I am feeling like this it is because I don't like to feel useless. I always like working. Even when I am on vacation I feel guilty and want to keep in contact with work. I haven't had a job, officially, for 4 weeks but I keep in contact with the people I work with and the schools that I have worked with in the past. I do that so I don't feel useless. Tomorrow I will be attending a big meeting that I don't even know if my boss will be attending. If he is there, which he is supposed to, then I am glad he sees that I really care about my job. He probably won't be there, because he doesn't see any importance in this meeting, and I will refuse to represent him. The people that I support don't even know that I am not employed right now, until they need something from me. I need to stay busy, tomorrow after the meeting I will go to the gym, then Sarah's volleyball game (she really is very good) and then I will go to a MeetUp game night and be around people. People say that exercise keeps you from feeling blue, but I wonder which comes first ... feeling good enough to work out, or to work out so you feel good. Sort of like the chicken and the egg thing. I hope everyone that reads this (if anyone does) has a better day than I do.